The Threshold of the Deeper Journey

Ready to throw your affirmations in the f* it bucket? How about that meditation to clear your head space for night…..still have your thought running at night? If you’re anything like me, there was a time that I didn’t know what I was feeling….yet I was experiencing it so powerfully that I was overwhelmed.

I didn’t understand how to be in the relationships I had. They were feeling different and vague. In the confusion I was in…I can certainly tell you what it looked like. It started with just a few extra minutes in the shower contemplating life’s questions. I wasn’t getting any helpful answers and didn’t notice the time passing either.

Then, I started sitting at the bottom of the shower because I needed just a little longer. I was okay with this because I needed to sit down to better apply myself to shaving my legs. Again, I didn’t notice any time go by. For the longest time I cried at the bottom of the shower, and I didn’t need to see or feel my tears. Therefore, I could put that eerie false feeling smile back on, because no one like a “Debby Downer”.

Other people seemed to feel better around me, but they were the same people that said they would support me whatever came my way. That feeling of support was starting to feel like words from them, and the distance between us was growing. The shower took my pain that I didn’t want to feel. I now know they were/are called Rejection and a destroying of my sense of belonging. I spiraled even further into my thoughts, “What’s wrong with me?”….”Why is this happening to me?” “Do I have dirt on my nose?” “How come I don’t know what I’m feeling?” I spent what felt like lifetimes to cultivate these relationships, and yet it seemed like I could feel them ending before feeling the support that they said they would offer. I was being ripped from the inside and again….another night in the shower….not knowing what was wrong with me…”Why don’t I fit???”

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DOES THIS SOUND LIKE YOU?

  • Racing and repetitive thoughts
  • Takes time to settle the mind at bedtime
  • Aches and pains that seem to stay
  • Have fear of missing out (facebook scrolling)
  • Have a strong affinity to being at home and relieved when plans for evenings out get canceled
  • Relationships seem strained
  • Hard to get back on track after being distracted
  • Seem to always be in a state of overwhelm or stuck
  • daily activities are not supporting you like they used to

 

Major things can move your world and they certainly rocked mine. There’s an idea that if you hadn’t physically lost someone, had been in an accident or personally had chronic issues, then if what your experiencing didn’t equate to that, it didn’t matter. It’s not nearly as bad…so “Be happy!”

I was miserable and I shut myself off because it was like what I was feeling was a mere inconvenience. But through my experiences the body and soul holds memories. They store as anxiety, emotional pain, heavy mental fog and physical chronic pain. When traditional and even some awkward methods don’t work, you start to move into uncharted territory.

I was dying inside and I was throwing myself under the rug.

When I moved in intuitive work, I found the most calming wave come over me during the sessions. When talking through the assessment afterwards, it was like I was being heard for the first time and I was able to release the years of fear from all parts of me of all the times I didn’t measure up or that things never seem to go as I thought. I hadn’t realized how engaging an energy session would be. Despite my analytical logical mind, the facilitators said things my heart only knew. I felt an overwhelming ease in my body that I was in the right place at the right time.

I felt room to expand and my heart lightened. The inner-knowing, power, awareness and grace I feel now are a part of my life. I am in alignment with my path. I’m grateful for my struggles and challenges as they motivated the intensity of my intuitive capabilities. My mentors are so pleased with my work that I’ve decided to share these experiences and this soul listening technique with others.

So what’s my intent now?

  • I want to help you be comfortable with soul listening energy work and your natural healing abilities.
  • You’ll permit yourself to be more defiant with your hearts’ desire.
  • You’ll allow ease and grace be part of your life. 
  • Gain clarity and accurately know what you need to make a difference in your thought patterns